She called me today. But I missed her call. When I'm at work I turn my phone on silent which is why I didn't hear it, otherwise I would have picked it up. However she didn't leave me a message and as curious as I am to know why she called and why we haven't spoken I would rather wait for her to call me back instead of calling her back, just in case it turns into me chasing her again. I don't want to go through that again now that I've managed to get pass the hurt and anger of her ignoring me. If she would have left a message such as "Hey call me back we need to talk." Then I would call back. What are your thoughts? At this point I don't know where the two of us stand anymore. Unless something tragic happened to her and that's the reason for her not speaking to me, I don't think our friendship could ever be the same. I would always feel like I have to be on pins and needles with her or feel like I couldn't be myself so I don't hurt her or make her mad. And I'd always wonder if she'd ever do this to me again and think it was an OK way to act. Once again I'm bothered on how to go about this. I'm just going to pray and leave it in gods hands.
Personally, I would handle it the same way. Prayer is always the best way to go and should always be our first resort; which is most of the time our last. I know I can at least vouch for that one myself. I think it's important for her to know that your feelings matter just as much as her's. Even though her intentions may have never been to hurt you in that way, good intentions have to be followed through with the right action. Other than that, it comes off as manipulation. In friendship, just like any relationship, we have to be more selfless than selfish. It should come with no strings attached; we should only hope for respect and love in return.
ReplyDeleteI agree Neka!
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