Not My Week

Hello Readers,

This week hasn't been going so well. After battling a Migraine last week, this week I've been dealing with a pinch nerve in my knee and let me be the first to tell you that it HURTS like hell! I'm not sure how I injured my knee but I haven't been to sleep for the last two days. I didn't sleep at all last night and and Tuesday night I slept for about 45 min. I get sharp pains that make me jump all through the day and night, along with a numb and prickly feeling in my knee on top of that my knee feels like its on fire. The only time I feel better is when I walk. I met with my Dr last week about it and she said unfortunately nerves have to heal on their own or sometimes they don't heal at all. Yesterday and today the pain has gotten worst. I'm at work right now and I'm so irritated from the pain and I'm SO Darn sleepy. But sleep is not an option because when I lay down it gets worse because I'm no longer moving. I cried like a baby last night because I couldn't find anyone to drive me to the ER : ( I looked up pinched nerves in the knee on the internet today and found the only other solution is a cortisone shot in the knee. OUCH! There is NO way I can go through that. I'm terrified of needles and from what I've read so far that shot really hurts. I emailed my doctor today asking her for pain meds. I pray she gets back to me today. I don't think I can stand another night of pain. I've tried Tylenol, aspirin Advil and nothing helps. Hopefully next week I'll feel better and have better things to talk about. Stay tuned for next week and have a great weekend everyone!

My Story With Depression

I recently started following a blog titled "We Have To Make It"

It's about a young girl suffering from Depression. Through her blog I visited some of her members blogs who also have blogs about depression. So this post is dedicated to my new blog Friend MakingIt20.

Her blog and a few others that I have been reading has really weighed heavy on my heart the last few weeks. Sometimes when we are going through tough things in life, we feel like we are the only one in the world experiencing that pain and that no else is suffering like your suffering. Subconsciously we know that others in the world are going through things too, but when its happening to you it can feel like its only happening to you. I just wanted to take this time to tell those and my new friend that someone you don't know is out there praying for you and cares and this is my depression story.

Sometimes you look around and everyone seems to be so happy and to seem like that have it altogether. But in reality they don't. I've never suffered from the illness of Depression but I have certainly dealt with it from time to time. About three years ago I was really depressed about being single. So depressed that I didn't like going out especially with my friends that were in relationships. I stayed home every weekend. My day consisted of going to work and coming home and going straight to bed after taking a sleeping pill. I couldn't watch movies that were about relationships and love without crying. I hated hearing about my friends and their new boyfriends or them getting engaged. I hated seeing couples in public and most of ALL I HATED VALENTINES DAY! Actually I still hate that day, but deal with it a lot better lol. I was so depressed that I pretty much cried myself to sleep almost every night which highly contributed to my migraines every morning. I was so unhappy and couldn't for the life of me understand why such a sweet and funny gal like myself was still single. Why hadn't I met my match...why hadn't my hubby found me yet? I never felt suicidal but I didn't feel like I had a reason to live. I didn't care about other family members or friends missing me. After 2 years of dreading getting out of the bed every morning and dragging myself to work, throwing on this fake & phony smile I decided I needed to do something about it.That's when I heard about a video that was on Oprah called "The Secret". I got a hold of that video and it began to help pull me out of the depression I was in. I even took a few classes on motivation and living a positive life and started applying all that I learned to my christian life. I put up positive affirmations on my bathroom mirror and would say them to myself every time I went into my bathroom. Day by day I started feeling a little bit better. I learned that it felt better to imagine good things in my life happening to me then to sit and cry about the things that I didn't have. Today I'm no longer depressed about being single. From time to time I have moments where I sort of get sad but I remember that God loves me and he has my best interest at heart and he hasn't forgotten about me. I found hobbies to keep me busy like playing the piano which I love, crocheting, or working on a book that I'm writing and even blogging. So I just wanted to say to my new friend and others who are still suffering...to hang in there and don't give up. Continue to seek professional help and medication if you need it. And always remember that your not alone.

Don't Go See It!!! Trust Me!!

Hey Everyone,

My apologies that I didn't post last Friday. I was at home with a horrible Migraine on Wednesday and it didn't end till Friday afternoon. This Saturday my younger cousin begged me to go see the new movie out called: The Devil Inside....OMG. As of Saturday night I have vowed that I will NEVER watch another scary movie that has to deal with demonic possession or paranormal events. I'm a huge movie lover but these are the only movies that mess with my spirit and really frighten me. That movie scared the living crap out of me. I made my two younger cousins stay that night with me since I live alone. Even after everyone fell asleep I had trouble sleeping. Images kept flashing through my head and I kept waking up having to pray and try to go back to sleep. See the issues with those types of movies is that, a lot of people fail to realize that those issues are real. A person can be possessed and exorcism are performed around the world especially in the catholic religion. So those movies really bother me. Something kept telling me not to go see it but I ignored myself lol. And now I'm really paying for it. So when I woke up Sunday morning, I started looking through my DVD collection and I got rid of every moving that had to do with that type of stuff. I gave the movies to my cousins. They were happy to take them off my hands lol. As a christian that are some movies that we should be careful about watching as it bothers our spirit. Since I love movies so much I'm kind of hard headed when it comes to certain movies but I do pray before watching them. However I have seriously learned my lesson. So if those type of movies scare you then I would advise to avoid this movie at all cost, if not then knock yourself out lol!

OMG I finally hit my little Ten Followers

Thanks to all my new followers for helping me reach my first 10. I look at other blogs and see they have 500 or more followers and think to myself how in the world did they get that many followers. I can only pray that I'm blessed with a big number like that some day. I hope my blog continues to interest you, and please feel free to share it with others you think may be interested in reading and joining as well. Thanks again for your dedication, and remember I blog once a week usually on Friday's. Have a great week and see you back here on Friday.

"Tee"

Yes I'm Celibate

Cel·i·ba·cy (sl-b-s)

n.

1. Abstinence from sexual intercourse, especially by reason of religious vows.

2. The condition of being unmarried.

In case you didn't know I'm currently 31 and I've been celibate for about 7 years now. Now I don't go around shouting this out to the world but recently a very good conversation lead me to blogging about this topic. I'm a christian. Now I'm not perfect and there are still a lot of things God is working on with me like profanity which by the way is so much better considering how I was brought up and all the profanity that was around me. But anyway.....All Christians aren't perfect. We battle with day to day issues just like everyone else. We all go through trials and tribulations just like everyone else. But there does come a time in every Christians life where he/she hits a turning point and realize they need to change a lot of things in their life and start leading the life that God has called them to lead. And seven years ago I came across the same turning point. After a horrible heart break in a relationship I decided that I would never have sex again until it was with my husband. I even bought a brand new mattress to get rid of any soul ties I may have had in that bed lol. The only person that has been on my mattress is me. I don't even let men sit on my bed or enter my room anymore. But before I could make such a big decision like that, I had to do my research to back up my decision. I knew this would turn a lot of heads with friends and family members who weren't saved. And I knew they would beat me over the head and tell me I was crazy. So as I did my research I learned that sex was a gift from God to MARRIED COUPLES ONLY lol! I repeat....MARRIED COUPLES ONLY! You may ask why if you don't know, and the reason is, because God knew that marriage would be hard between a man and a woman, so he gave them a gift that would always bring them back to where they needed to be. But you see, this gift only works if you use it the correct way. Its a sin to have sex before marriage or just sleep around. Why do you think most marriages don't last, or some are so messed up, or a lot of these relationships such as girlfriend and boyfriends don't work out. In case you didn't know. Girlfriend and Boyfriend are not words in the bible. Only Husband and Wife. The bible says the only person you are to have sex with is your husband/wife. So when I realized that I was already messing up my future by having pre-marital sex I decided to stop and so I did. It wasn't easy in the beginning but now its a piece of cake. I don't need it and don't miss it at all. I'm excited about that moment I'm going to share with my husband when he knows that I've made such a strong decision. If I knew what I know now and I could take it all back, believe me I would have stayed a virgin. I lost my virginity at 17 which I think is a great age considering some kids are having sex at ages like 11 and up.

So now my only issue is dealing with the world and all the comments and remarks my non-religious friends & family have to say about it. And let me tell you its not easy. I've been asked if I was a lesbian, or if I'd been sexually abused lol. All kinds of craziness. Its hard defending yourself to people who don't understand the rules behind being a christian. But I know I've made the right decision and I know God will reward me for that. I don't know whats taking him so long to send me my hubby lol but I know I still got some growing to do...so I'll use this time to do just that.
By the way, God has made it very easy to get rid of men that come into my life that's not on the same level with me. I don't tell guys I'm celibate right away when I meet them. Its not until I develop a more personal relationship with them as to when I feel its time to tell them a bit more about me. But let me tell ya.....the minute I say I'm celibate, their eyes get big and they head for the door. And I just smile and say NEXT!!!! LOL!
So here is a message to the folks who just don't seem to understand Celibacy: It's a choice one chooses to make and let me tell you, unless your celibate and still a virgin, becoming celibate after years of experiencing sex is not easy. It takes a lot of strong will, prayer, dedication and devotion. We are not weirdo's because we choose to not sleep around. There is nothing mentally wrong with us. Not everyone is celibate for religious reasons, but for those who are: We've tapped into something that you may never understand. So don't beat up folks because of the decision they've made...instead respect them and congratulate them..because in the end the blessing that they will receive from God will be so worth the wait.

Thanks for reading: I hope I haven't offended anyone. I understand that are lots of religions out there and I respect them all. If this message has offended someone...I apologize sincerely.
"Tee"

It's 2012 Let's Get It Started!

Alright folks, its a new year. I know we all get tired of trying to make resolutions that most of the time never get completed. But SOOOO WHAT!! It doesn't make the time or year, you can always start fresh and work on ways to make your life better.

This New Years I partied HARD LOL! OMG My Aunty threw a party and I had so much fun. I danced till my legs ached and burned.

I'm excited about this year. I can feel a big change coming in my life. I'm not sure what it is, but I know I'll be much more happier this year. I plan to get out more, see more and do more. I do have resolutions to work on that I mentioned in my last post but I'm not going to beat myself up when December roles around and I didn't complete them. However that doesn't mean I'm not going to give it my all. So I advise you all to get excited about 2012 and tell yourself that this year will be YOUR YEAR! Do it all, see it all and try it all. Don't hold back. Lets Get It Started (Like MC Hammer said years ago lol!) Have a great year everyone, and look forward to my crazy posts for 2012!