Most of my readers are close friends and family members and know my personal life pretty well. But I do have a few new readers who don't know a lot about my personal life unless they really went back and read my old posts. For those of you who don't know me I've been single for about 8 to 9 years. That's a pretty long time to not have a boyfriend. And its a long enough time to drive a lady like me insane if your the type that does want to be married and have a family some day.
But all I can do is cross my fingers and hope and pray and have faith that God hasn't forgotten me. Which I know he hasn't
Anyway....this post was brought on by a conversation I had lunch with my co-worker/best friend DB:
I told him that last Friday was a really bad day for me.
He asked "Why? "
I explained that I was feeling down about things in my life and all the friends around me recently getting married.
His response: He sighed
Suddenly I remembered he's a guy. And although we are hella cool and I can talk to him about anything, there are some things that men just can't handle and help out when it comes to women.
Now I'm not sure if his sigh was because he didn't want to hear this GIRLY sad crap or if he sighed because he's tired of hearing my SAME story. I wasn't about to ask.
Anyway, Although DB knows I've been single for 8 to 9 years, he doesn't know the full story of everything I've been through and changed about myself in the past 6 years. So unfortunately he still says things like:
"You need to change certain things about you" (in particular he's talking about me being celibate. He says I need to put the bait out there to catch the fish lol) I disagree!
"May be your standards are too high (he didn't use those direct words but he says something around that)
He says a lot more but I can't remember most of them right now.
Anyway.....I wrote this post because I'm sort of tired of people thinking that I haven't done anything to help my situation. And believe me people I HAVE!
There are so many things I changed about myself since I became single, about my self esteem, confidence, blah blah blah. I could go on for days.
I had a lot to fix about myself when I first became single. There was so much about me that I realized needed a change. It took some hard work and effort but I got it done. And now I'm a beautiful queen awaiting her king. I just don't know what's taking HIM SO DAMN LONG lol! And it makes me furious. Because time is ticking. So I really do get tired of most of the comments people make. I guess I have to learn to keep my mouth shut and stop crying about my problems to certain people.
I do know that speaking on the negative only brings MORE negative, and that's something I'm still working hard to change about my attitude.
So instead of me making a list of all the things I've done to try and change my situation, like Internet dating, trying new places etc...just know that I've done all that and my case is one of those rare cases.
People say to me today:
"Terrica, you have so much to give to a man, any man would be lucky to have you...but why are you single?"
My answer:
And to my homeboy DB, If your reading this, please don't feel like I'm shooting down all your opinions and suggestions. I just wanted you to know that I've done all I can, so If I am complaining to you about something (which I will try very HARD NOT to do from now on lol) just listen to me and if you need to say something, then say "Your in my prayers"
