Me & Kobe

Kobe blew a tire last week. He not only blew a tire but it came off the freaken rim. Oh by the way Kobe is my car. My little silver Scion XB or toaster on wheels as others call it. I was driving about 35 mph when I hit something in the road and all of a sudden I see my tire rolling down the street in front of me lol and sparks are flaming on the right side of me and I realize I'm driving on my rim. Thank God I didn't get into an accident and I didn't completely destroy my rim. Its just scratched pretty bad. But due to my expensive tire and waiting for pay day I'm riding on my spare and can only drive as fast as 55 mph which isn't fun at all especially on the free way. Its been a rough week. They say when it rains it pours. I'm trying so hard to stay positive and not be negative. But it can be so hard at times. As I was getting into my car this morning to drive to my co-workers house for a ride to work I was disgusted with myself with how Kobe looks. he's not clean and I haven't kept my promise to him as to getting him fixed up. A few years ago I joined a car club called Scikotics. They sort of fell apart and I became Vice President over the Contra Cost Chapter then the President of our chapter completely dropped off the face of the earth leaving me all alone with the chapter and I still didn't know everyone that well. So the chapter fell apart. My car never got fixed up or had any modifications done to it except a nice exhaust put in. And I'm sort of irritated that I still have not been able to fix my car up the way I've wanted to for example I wanted to put led lights underneath the car, suicide doors in the back and butterfly doors in the front etc...I could go on and on. But like I said when it rains it pours. I haven't been able to put my money aside to fix things on my car. Something is always happening. Last year I collected a dental bill of $4,000.00 which I'm still paying off. Thank God I have about $400.00 left then I'm done, but that put a huge dent in my pocket, not to mention taxes etc. So my poor Kobe got put on the back burner. I'm thinking of joining another car club called Scion Apocalypse, but I don't want to join them until I get a few things fixed on my car like a paint job, new rims, and new grill and at least some small interior work done. When you show up to these groups its pretty embarrassing to show up with a plain car and everyone's ride is decked out like The Fast & The Furious LOL! So much to do and so little time. Write a book, get in school for film, work on car, Hmmmmm what to do...what to do....(If only I could stumble across a million dollars all my problems would be solved lol!) Here is a picture of my "Kobe".

Back in the day!

I wish I was born back in the old days. Back in the 1900's when women really understood what it meant to respect a man and treat a man like a man. When men knew how to be man and knew how to treat woman and take care of them. When woman knew their place and knew how to let a man be a man. Back in the day woman respected a man simply because he took care of his family. Because he PROVIDED. He made sure food was on the table and a roof was over their heads. That's all the respect that he needed. But now that a woman can do that herself today too we've taken that type of respect away from a man. Today a woman respects a man for all these small stupid things in my opinion and I'll admit I do it too. We respect a man because he's smart, funny, cute, sweet, respectful, because he respects us, because he treats us as equals blah blah blah. Now we have all this equal stuff and I'm glad for us but it has changed a lot in our world and it has changed our men believe it or not. I also miss on how easy things were back in the old days when it came to dating and marriage. Men weren't afraid of marriage like a lot of men are today. A lot of them see it as a trap or don't think they should complicate their relationship by getting married. Dating is even difficult. Things were simple and straight to the point back in the day. You didn't have to read between the lines. Men weren't afraid to say what they wanted to say and tell you what they wanted from you. Today you have to be a mind reader or play 50 questions. There are all these dang rules to follow and everything seems so damn complicated. Old people who are still married after 60 years and are still happily in love are so lucky. If you talk to them, they would tell you how easy things were in their days and how complicated we are in ours. We are just so different today. I can't imagine what our world will be like in another 100 years. I wish I was born back in the old days.