50 Things That Make Me SMILE!

I SMILE:

1. When I see an older couple being affectionate


2. When strangers smile at me


3. When people compliment my car (Kobe)


4. When people tell me my car always smells good


5. When people compliment my hands or feet


6. When I see a rainbow in the sky


7. When it rains


8. When the air smells like fresh rain


9. When all my bills are paid with money to spare


10. When I get to see my nephews or nieces


11. When my sisters come down to visit me


12. When a sexy man winks his eye at me


13. When people compliment my hair style


14. When my mom tells me she loves me


15. When my sisters or brother call me big sister


16. When I receive a gift


17. When I can feel God's presence


18. When I watch a new movie


19. When I buy a new DVD


20. When I walk into my apartment


21. When I've lost a pound (LOL)


22. When my best friend calls


23. When I see a couple get married


24. For the camera : )


25. When someone hugs me


26. When my friends tell me they love me


27. When people tell me I'm wise or intelligent


28. When babies are born


29. When I see a friend that I haven't seen in a while


30. When I check my account and have money (lol)


31. When I get to buy new clothes


32. When someone holds the door open for me


33. When I hear good news


34. When I learn something new


35. When I spend time with my family during the holidays


36. When my nieces or nephews call me TeeTee


37. When someone compliments a picture of me on Facebook


38. When I wake to a new day


39. When I lay down in my comfortable new bed


40. When my boss recognizes my hard work


41. When my house is clean and organized


42. When my friends receive good news


43. I smile when my lil sisters are happy


44. When I hear a song I like


45. When I get to watch boxing


46. When I give money to the homeless


47. When I witness an act of kindness


48. When its time to get off work at 5pm


49. When I see my pay check


50. And finally I smile knowing that God will always take care of me

Friends

What is a friend: Definition:

• a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.


• a person who gives assistance; patron; supporter.


• a person who is on good terms with another; a person who is not hostile.

So according to this definition, If I'm mad at any of my friends they aren't my friends at that time LOL. Funny huh? (A person who is on good terms with another.) I'm noticing the older I get the more difficult it is to keep a good friend. Some would say that I'm a difficult person to be friends with. I'm blunt, honest and very out spoken. And at times can be easily irritated for no reason at all. But over the years I have toned down a lot due to some of my friends stating that I hurt their feelings. But I've also realized that changing who I am so that others are comfortable around me, makes me also not true to being who I really am. I feel different, and not myself and I feel like I have to walk on egg shells around certain people because of how sensitive they are. I'M FREAKEN DONE MAN!!!! I can't do this anymore. I can't pretend to be someone I'm not, I can't bite my tongue any more, which I've been doing for years and a lot of people are getting away with a lot of stuff that pissed me off. If you can't handle Terrica Shervon Smith then you don't need to be my FRIEND!

• If your too sensitive and can't handle a blunt person DON'T BE MY FRIEND


• If you can't believe me when I say "I'd never hurt you on purpose DON'T BE MY FRIEND


• If you can't handle my mood swings DON'T BE MY FRIEND


• If you can't allow me to fully be myself when I'm around you DON'T BE MY FRIEND

Lord please send me friends that except me for who I REALLY am. Please send me friends that are strong, honest, and trust worthy. AMEN!

I Want, I Hope, I Will!

I want to one day travel to Egypt or Bethlehem where Jesus was born.
I want to go sky diving before I'm 40.
I want to taste caviar someday. (I'm a Little scared though lol)
I want to one day swim a mile before I'm too old lol!

I want to spend the day with a celebrity (actor or actress) maybe Denzel.

I want to eat dinner at an expensive elegant restaurant some day.

I want to see the Statue of Liberty in person.

I want to pray at ground zero (World Trade Centers location)

I want to spend most of my days laughing so hard I can barely breath.

I want to learn to ballroom dance.

I want to save a young life performing CPR.

I want to see my mom live past 90 years old.

I want a real relationship with my dad.

I want to have a friend that's a dwarf or midget lol.

I want to see the sun set (I've watched it rise, most beautiful site I've seen)

I want to be able to spend $2000.00 carelessly.

I want to see my brother grow into a responsible, intelligent man.

I want to see my twin sisters become the best wives they can be.

I hope I experience real and true love.

I hope I continue to grow wise.

I hope I live past 90.

I hope someday to have over $10,000.00 in my bank account.

I hope world hunger is someday resolved.

I hope someday everyone in the world knows God.

I hope we don't live to see global warming.

I hope they find a cure for aids.

I hope I never lose my teeth and have to wear dentures lol.

I hope my uncle Don gets out of prison soon.

I hope our family has a reunion every 2 years.

I hope I don't live to see the end of the world.

I hope I live to see my grand children grow.

I hope paying taxes is one day abolished.

I hope one day college education is completely free.

I will always put God first.

I will meet the man of my dreams soon.

I will get married.

I will have children with my husband.

I will have a big family.

I will have a loving and wonderful husband.

I will own a family boat someday.

I will own my own house someday.

I will always make people smile.

I will be thankful for every breath I take.

I will raise my children in the way of the Lord.

I will always take care of my husband and children.

I will always be the best friend I can be to anyone.

I will always love my family and friends.

I will always be thankful for the things I have.

I will own my own business someday.

I will always love myself.

I will always be proud of who I am.

I will always serve the Lord.

I will go to Heaven when this world ends.

What would happen if every woman in the world went on a sex strike for a month lol?

So last weekend two of my home boys came over to kick it. We had some wine and watched movies. I find it so fasinating how guys open up around me and talk to me as if I'm one of the guys. You guys remember my post " Always a Friend Never a Girlfriend " right? Well this night was a prime example of how guys see me as a home boy lol! Like any other time that I kick it with my guy friends, all they talk about is WOMEN, booty, breast, etc etc. They asked me to put the movie on "The Players Club". Well if you haven't seen it, watch it, but be warned that this movie is for the fellas lol. The movie is about a young lady who becomes a stripper at a place called the players club to pay for college. As we sat and watched the movie I looked at my two guy friends, their eyes were glued to the screen. A fire could have started in front of them and they wouldn't have noticed. In one of the scene's Lisa Ray dances on stage. They asked me to rewind it once she finished dancing. If you could have seen their faces. My goodness, why did God make sex such a curse for men? Why does sex turn them on sooo much. Why is it always sex sex sex with them? I wonder what would happen if every woman in the world went on a sex strike for a month? I'd bet their sperm would start getting cranky lol.

As we sat and watched the movies, they talked about women, and how fine or ugly some were. One of them is married and the other is single. But you would have thought they were both single. The way they talk about women amazes me. Here is a conversation between the two of them:

"Dang bro that one chick at your party was fine as hell."

"Which chick?"

"Man you know who I'm talking about, the one with the big ass."

"Oh her, yeah man she look good huh?"

"Is she single?"

"I think so."

"Do she mess with black dudes"

"Yeah"

"Ooohhh man, I wouldn't mine getting at her man."

"I feel you bro, she use to spend the night over my house sometime with my wife, MAN I can't help but to look at her bro."

"Swear she be staying the night?"

"Hell yeah, I ain't got no problem with it either bro lol"

"Nigga I wouldn't either lol."

"She got a perfect rack man, she be walking around in her pajamas, she be looking hella good."

(Me) "Your wife let another woman stay they night with you guys."

"All the time, why?"

(Me) she stupid, you should never bring another woman in your house like that"

"Why not lol?"

(Me) Hmm well let me see...Look at how your talking about her lol DUH."

"Man aint nothing wrong with looking."

"You got that right, ain't nothing wrong with looking lol, Bro you need to hook that up for me."

"Alright man."

(Me) MEN.... yall something else lol!

This is just one of the crazy conversations that night the three of us had. I'm never shocked or surprise by some of the things my guy friends say but I'm still amazed at how open they are around me. Isn't that crazy?

I'm Back

Hey readers,

I'm sorry I haven't posted anything the last several days. Just been really busy at work and not getting much sleep either. I've also been suffering from a migraine. But I do have something I want to talk about soon. It's about two of my guy friends that came over this past weekend to kick it with me. I'll tell you about that story later tonight or post it tomorrow.

Till next time readers

"Shallow Hal Wants A Gal"

Two weeks ago, one of my home girls stayed the night with me. We got into a good conversation about California men being attracted to video vixens. If you don't know what a video vixen is, turn on a rap video with any of the latest rappers, 50 Cent, Ludacris or even Lil Wayne's alien looking self lol. See that perfect shaped girl with longs legs, long hair and probably mixed dancing in the video? YES sir, that's a VIDEO VIXEN. Our poor men of America have been brain washed into thinking this is the type of chick EVERY or MOST women should look like. They are brain washed to think their not a MAN unless they've got a video vixen on their arm. My friend and I got on you tube and looked at one of ludacris videos. I don't remember the name of the song, but in the video he was in the bar and apparently got a little drunk which lead him to having on Beer Goggles. For those of you that don't know what beer goggles are, its when your so drunk, that the ugliest person looks like the cutest person. And its not until your sober the next day and realize you have a hiena laying next to you lol. So Luda is now walking around the bar with these beer goggles on and spots a girl he thinks looks hella fine. Turns out she's an over weight woman. And he gets all mad that he was too drunk to notice she wasn't a vixen. Watching that video really upset me, because I sometimes feel like men look at me that way. Everyone tells me I'm beautiful and a wonderful person but men just DON'T talk to me. Hardly EVER! If they do talk to me, its a bum or some ghetto thug with a mouth full of gold teeth, or some35 year old man who still leaves at home with his mama lol. So the only thing I can come up with is, it's my weight. I'm so tired of these videos and movies that look down on over weight woman. Here are some example movies that put down a big women:

• She's All That: A bet is made to turn a geek into a prom queen. But before the geek is picked they look at a fat girl and all laugh and make jokes as if she could never be prom queen.



• How to Lose A Guy In 10 Days: A bet is made to get a Woman to fall in love with Matthew in two weeks. As they start searching for the girl to do the bet, they first spot an over weight woman and Mathew says "come on guys be nice."



• Hot Chicks: A decent looking black guy spots an over weight woman in the club and decides he wants to talk to her, but his friends look at him like he's crazy and make fun of him because she's over weight.
  

These are just a few I can go on and on for days. But you get my point right.? Do these film makers understand how they are crushing the hearts of over weight women who look at these movies? Guess not! I've even had a guy try and talk to me, after he went through all my skinny friends who turned him down. Thank goodness I was drunk because I told him off. I said "All you retarded guys see when you look at women is beautiful wrapping paper wrapped around a present. You never see what's on the inside. You look at a woman and her wrapping paper is all shiny with a huge bow on top but you open it up and its a piece of shit inside. Then you look at women like me who you considered wrapped in newspaper and duck tape, but you open me up and its a diamond inside. But you'll never own a diamond because your too superficial. So go back over there and enjoy your pieces of shit!" LOL....he couldn't say anything by the time I was done with him. So back to my post, my sister came down this week and we watched the movie: Shallow Hal! I really loved the fact that Hal was hypnotized into seeing the inner beauty of a woman rather than her outer appearance. Even though it took hypnotizing him he learned how shallow he was in wanting to have the perfect looking woman. I wish I could hypnotize all these retarded men in California. Then video vixens would be out of a job lol and the big sistas could take over. Even though I'm a big girl, I have a lot to offer a man. My husband will be satisfied. I'm kind, loving, intelligent, funny, sweet, sexy, romantic and every other good word out there lol. But these jerks just fail to see that. They fail to see that I'm easy 2 love.

She Called!

She called me today. But I missed her call. When I'm at work I turn my phone on silent which is why I didn't hear it, otherwise I would have picked it up. However she didn't leave me a message and as curious as I am to know why she called and why we haven't spoken I would rather wait for her to call me back instead of calling her back, just in case it turns into me chasing her again. I don't want to go through that again now that I've managed to get pass the hurt and anger of her ignoring me. If she would have left a message such as "Hey call me back we need to talk." Then I would call back. What are your thoughts? At this point I don't know where the two of us stand anymore. Unless something tragic happened to her and that's the reason for her not speaking to me, I don't think our friendship could ever be the same. I would always feel like I have to be on pins and needles with her or feel like I couldn't be myself so I don't hurt her or make her mad. And I'd always wonder if she'd ever do this to me again and think it was an OK way to act. Once again I'm bothered on how to go about this. I'm just going to pray and leave it in gods hands.