My Story With Depression

I recently started following a blog titled "We Have To Make It"

It's about a young girl suffering from Depression. Through her blog I visited some of her members blogs who also have blogs about depression. So this post is dedicated to my new blog Friend MakingIt20.

Her blog and a few others that I have been reading has really weighed heavy on my heart the last few weeks. Sometimes when we are going through tough things in life, we feel like we are the only one in the world experiencing that pain and that no else is suffering like your suffering. Subconsciously we know that others in the world are going through things too, but when its happening to you it can feel like its only happening to you. I just wanted to take this time to tell those and my new friend that someone you don't know is out there praying for you and cares and this is my depression story.

Sometimes you look around and everyone seems to be so happy and to seem like that have it altogether. But in reality they don't. I've never suffered from the illness of Depression but I have certainly dealt with it from time to time. About three years ago I was really depressed about being single. So depressed that I didn't like going out especially with my friends that were in relationships. I stayed home every weekend. My day consisted of going to work and coming home and going straight to bed after taking a sleeping pill. I couldn't watch movies that were about relationships and love without crying. I hated hearing about my friends and their new boyfriends or them getting engaged. I hated seeing couples in public and most of ALL I HATED VALENTINES DAY! Actually I still hate that day, but deal with it a lot better lol. I was so depressed that I pretty much cried myself to sleep almost every night which highly contributed to my migraines every morning. I was so unhappy and couldn't for the life of me understand why such a sweet and funny gal like myself was still single. Why hadn't I met my match...why hadn't my hubby found me yet? I never felt suicidal but I didn't feel like I had a reason to live. I didn't care about other family members or friends missing me. After 2 years of dreading getting out of the bed every morning and dragging myself to work, throwing on this fake & phony smile I decided I needed to do something about it.That's when I heard about a video that was on Oprah called "The Secret". I got a hold of that video and it began to help pull me out of the depression I was in. I even took a few classes on motivation and living a positive life and started applying all that I learned to my christian life. I put up positive affirmations on my bathroom mirror and would say them to myself every time I went into my bathroom. Day by day I started feeling a little bit better. I learned that it felt better to imagine good things in my life happening to me then to sit and cry about the things that I didn't have. Today I'm no longer depressed about being single. From time to time I have moments where I sort of get sad but I remember that God loves me and he has my best interest at heart and he hasn't forgotten about me. I found hobbies to keep me busy like playing the piano which I love, crocheting, or working on a book that I'm writing and even blogging. So I just wanted to say to my new friend and others who are still suffering...to hang in there and don't give up. Continue to seek professional help and medication if you need it. And always remember that your not alone.